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I was always solitary.
Insulated
with a thick, wet blanket
of worthlessness,
wrapped in the silence of denial and neglect,
protected by red-hot rage.
Solitary confinement.
No one heard, or if they could,
they could not answer, did not care.
Alone in the darkness, I learned
to take the darkness as my friend,
to use the soothing numbness for a shield
there in my solitary world.
But I had precious bits of Light
enclosed,
entombed,
protected,
guarded.
No! I cried in silent rage.
You may not take this precious Light!
You may not extinguish it!
Guarded by my rage, my walls, my isolation,
self-imposed.
And now
as the walls I built
finally start to crumble,
I find that the Light
is filling my house,
filling my soul,
filling my life.
So many candles
soft golden flickering,
warming,
burning,
glowing,
shining,
growing,
bright!
Amid the crumbling walls
at last,
I stand within the Light.
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